choonage: The Velvet Underground - I'll Be Your Mirror
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Am currently operating on less sleep than I'd like. Had a good night last night drinking wine with Neelesh, Shier and Mary. I hadn't seen the latter two in about 3 years and it was really good to hang out again. It was kinda strange to see that things were still the same but slightly different...if that makes any sense. Anyhoo, whilst driving Neelesh back, we came to the conclusion that when I'm tired, I just crash without any warning and the change in my behaviour is rather palpable. It's scary and yet, maybe not that surprising. It's like a different Tim just pops up (somewhat like the Incredible Hulk but less green and bulky) and shows the world that he isn't taking any shit and doesn't care two hoots what anybody else thinks. It is quite worrying and yet, quite liberating at the same time. It's probably cos I suppress all these deep seated emotions that need to be unearthed every now and then (although, this seems to be happening with increasing/alarming frequency)..whatever it is, I hope it doesn't lose me any friends. I don't need to alienate myself in Spore anymore than I probably already have. So, till I find out what's wrong (or right?!) with me, please don't be a stranger like me.
choonage: The Velvet Underground - I'll Be Your Mirror
choonage: The Velvet Underground - I'll Be Your Mirror
Sunday, October 23, 2005
So, I've been getting some serious chat from the folks again. About careers and motivation and all that kind of thing. It's not been easy I have to admit. I'm currently in a strange position. I'm getting too comfortable at MTV (if I was getting a proper salary, it would be the perfect holiday job but...I'm not even on holiday and therein lies one major problem. I should be looking for a proper,permanent job.)...at the moment, I'm getting disillusioned about the (local)workforce. I can't see myself in the C&C department for the long run so what next? I feel like my options are swiftly disappearing as the days go by. I don't have a clue about what I want to do. I wish I could be a student forever. I miss my friends from St Andrews so much. I miss just sitting in my living room watching afternoon telly,drinking copious amounts of coffee, smoking rollies like there's no tomorrow, chatting with folk like Sam,Ali,Sara,Aidan,Fi...etc.......why oh why did I not do a postgrad?! I could have been in London now with mistah moon, going on adventures and acting silly. Instead, I'm in this humid country, irritable because I've quit the fags,because it feels like I'm trapped, feeling paranoid that Big Brother and all his little minions are watching me (constantly). I need a break. I need to clear my head. I need to find a girl who makes me forget that I'm such a whiney boy. But that's a problem in itself. I can't seem to find anyone suitable. And that, dear reader,is my problem and not your's. Thank you for reading.
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
So, I've been getting some serious chat from the folks again. About careers and motivation and all that kind of thing. It's not been easy I have to admit. I'm currently in a strange position. I'm getting too comfortable at MTV (if I was getting a proper salary, it would be the perfect holiday job but...I'm not even on holiday and therein lies one major problem. I should be looking for a proper,permanent job.)...at the moment, I'm getting disillusioned about the (local)workforce. I can't see myself in the C&C department for the long run so what next? I feel like my options are swiftly disappearing as the days go by. I don't have a clue about what I want to do. I wish I could be a student forever. I miss my friends from St Andrews so much. I miss just sitting in my living room watching afternoon telly,drinking copious amounts of coffee, smoking rollies like there's no tomorrow, chatting with folk like Sam,Ali,Sara,Aidan,Fi...etc.......why oh why did I not do a postgrad?! I could have been in London now with mistah moon, going on adventures and acting silly. Instead, I'm in this humid country, irritable because I've quit the fags,because it feels like I'm trapped, feeling paranoid that Big Brother and all his little minions are watching me (constantly). I need a break. I need to clear my head. I need to find a girl who makes me forget that I'm such a whiney boy. But that's a problem in itself. I can't seem to find anyone suitable. And that, dear reader,is my problem and not your's. Thank you for reading.
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
So, I've been getting some serious chat from the folks again. About careers and motivation and all that kind of thing. It's not been easy I have to admit. I'm currently in a strange position. I'm getting too comfortable at MTV (if I was getting a proper salary, it would be the perfect holiday job but...I'm not even on holiday and therein lies one major problem. I should be looking for a proper,permanent job.)...at the moment, I'm getting disillusioned about the (local)workforce. I can't see myself in the C&C department for the long run so what next? I feel like my options are swiftly disappearing as the days go by. I don't have a clue about what I want to do. I wish I could be a student forever. I miss my friends from St Andrews so much. I miss just sitting in my living room watching afternoon telly,drinking copious amounts of coffee, smoking rollies like there's no tomorrow, chatting with folk like Sam,Ali,Sara,Aidan,Fi...etc........why oh why did I not do a postgrad?! I could have been in London now with mistah moon, going on adventures and acting silly. Instead, I'm in this humid country, irritable because I've quit the fags,because it feels like I'm trapped, feeling paranoid that Big Brother and all his little minions are watching me (constantly). I need a break. I need to clear my head. I need to find a girl who makes me forget that I'm such a whiney boy. But that's a problem in itself. I can't seem to find anyone suitable. And that, dear reader,is my problem and not your's. Thank you for reading.
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
So, I've been getting some serious chat from the folks again. About careers and motivation and all that kind of thing. It's not been easy I have to admit. I'm currently in a strange position. I'm getting too comfortable at MTV (if I was getting a proper salary, it would be the perfect holiday job but...I'm not even on holiday and therein lies one major problem. I should be looking for a proper,permanent job.)...at the moment, I'm getting disillusioned about the (local)workforce. I can't see myself in the C&C department for the long run so what next? I feel like my options are swiftly disappearing as the days go by. I don't have a clue about what I want to do. I wish I could be a student forever. I miss my friends from St Andrews so much. I miss just sitting in my living room watching afternoon telly,drinking copious amounts of coffee, smoking rollies like there's no tomorrow, chatting with folk like Sam,Ali,Sara,Aidan,Fi...etc........why oh why did I not do a postgrad?! I could have been in London now with mistah moon, going on adventures and acting silly. Instead, I'm in this humid country, irritable because I've quit the fags,because it feels like I'm trapped, feeling paranoid that Big Brother and all his little minions are watching me (constantly). I need a break. I need to clear my head. I need to find a girl who makes me forget that I'm such a whiney boy. But that's a problem in itself. I can't seem to find anyone suitable. And that, dear reader,is my problem and not your's. Thank you for reading.
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I must offer many apologies for not being able to blog in ages, apart from yesterday's random blog-of-madness about the lack of neighbours...I was at work (on the BBC website) and found out to my horror that I was missing a most important episode of said British institution (okok, it's not even British to start with, but who cares?!)....after ranting about it to the millions of you out there, I realised to my satisfaction that even if the next time I was to watch Neighbours was in 20 years from now, I wouldn't really have missed a thing. The beauty of Neighbours is that you can miss huge chunks in between but still understand what's going on the next time you check back into the world of Ramsey Street.....now that I've written out my true thoughts on the matter, the entire cast is probably going to migrate to Canada or some other far away land and I'll be sat here eating my words. I can't believe I've actually dedicated an entire blog rant to a television programme I'm probably not going to see for ages! Ok,let's have some proper content, then.
Just to update you loyal bunch on what's been happening in my life here, I have to be honest. Nothing very exciting. I'm at MTV learning new things daily with regards to production. It's all very interesting but terribly knackering at the same time. I return home every night with a melted brain and the inability to say much. I love the fact that the stuff I'm writing gets read out by the VJs (ahem, for those of you with access to MTV S.E.Asia, watch next week's MTV Screen. The script for the 1st half is written by me as well as the DVD of the week and Top 5 segments.Hurrah!) and that I know alot of useless facts about films I haven't even seen. But, sitting in the office and being subjected to the same songs everyday is slowly driving me mad. What doesn't help is the fact that we share our studios with Nickelodeon (I probably spelt this wrong) and so, I get to see all sorts of people dressed up like freaks(today a spandex-clad "superhero" raised his eyebrows to acknowledge my presence when I passed by him in the loo) and furry animals walking around as if it's normal. It feels like I'm tripping half the time...I see gorgeous VJs running around making lots of noise and find myself singing cheesy as fark pop songs....it's so insane!
P.S. The crazy-feckin-frog came by the office yesterday as well as ran about downstairs when we went for an outdoor shoot. I was tempted to both hug and punch him. The guy inside the suit really fancied himself, waving to everybody like they were his fans and hugging young children....I hope he wasn't a kiddy-fiddler. It really sickened me the way he kept approaching the poor wee gullible kids...what is it about that damn frog?! He remains a mystery to me, 10 months after I first set my eyes upon him in a coffee shop in Amsterdam *grin*
Choonage: E'gum - Stop 2 (Dexter Remix)
Just to update you loyal bunch on what's been happening in my life here, I have to be honest. Nothing very exciting. I'm at MTV learning new things daily with regards to production. It's all very interesting but terribly knackering at the same time. I return home every night with a melted brain and the inability to say much. I love the fact that the stuff I'm writing gets read out by the VJs (ahem, for those of you with access to MTV S.E.Asia, watch next week's MTV Screen. The script for the 1st half is written by me as well as the DVD of the week and Top 5 segments.Hurrah!) and that I know alot of useless facts about films I haven't even seen. But, sitting in the office and being subjected to the same songs everyday is slowly driving me mad. What doesn't help is the fact that we share our studios with Nickelodeon (I probably spelt this wrong) and so, I get to see all sorts of people dressed up like freaks(today a spandex-clad "superhero" raised his eyebrows to acknowledge my presence when I passed by him in the loo) and furry animals walking around as if it's normal. It feels like I'm tripping half the time...I see gorgeous VJs running around making lots of noise and find myself singing cheesy as fark pop songs....it's so insane!
P.S. The crazy-feckin-frog came by the office yesterday as well as ran about downstairs when we went for an outdoor shoot. I was tempted to both hug and punch him. The guy inside the suit really fancied himself, waving to everybody like they were his fans and hugging young children....I hope he wasn't a kiddy-fiddler. It really sickened me the way he kept approaching the poor wee gullible kids...what is it about that damn frog?! He remains a mystery to me, 10 months after I first set my eyes upon him in a coffee shop in Amsterdam *grin*
Choonage: E'gum - Stop 2 (Dexter Remix)
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Argh!! It's the 20th Anniversary episode today of NEIGHBOURS!! What the hell am I doing in this "Neighbourless" country??!!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Yikes, suffering from a lack of quality sleep again. I've made it through my first week at MTV. Hurrah! It's been a good experience. I'm learning new things everyday and meeting new people, some cool, some just plain strange. But such is life and at MTV, many of the characters are larger than life, I suppose. I'm still finding my way around, trying to figure out if I am indeed cut out for this industry, having entered with no experience at all. Well, only time will tell if this is what I'm meant to do with my life. All I know is that at the moment, I might go insane if I have to listen to that damn Green Day song or that awful Pussy Cat Dolls excuse for a tune again. Having MTV on all day is almost a subtle form of aural torture when you're just not in the mood to listen to said artistes. The scary thing is that I find myself singing along or even unconsciously singing these silly songs out loud. For example, I found myself in Carrefour (sp?) the other day walking up and down the aisles, going "Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?" and actually getting into the spirit of things, thank goodness my common sense stepped in (albeit a little too late but better than never eh?) and saved the eardrums of an entire community of hypermarket shoppers.
So, yesterday, I finished work, went for dinner with the family and met up with a bunch of folk in Town. Of course, we had to drink beer and so, apologising to my belly (which neelesh seems to enjoy making fun of...not me, you see, just my belly for it is a separate entity....much like the little alien chap on that hapless bloke's belly in Total Recall. I hope my belly never gets to that stage!), I threw all caution to the wind and drank for Singapore. Our next stop was a wee watering hole in Little India whose name I shan't divulge because of selfish reasons; everytime we go, it just gets more and more crowded. Yes, one does have to be selfish with these things. We drank somemore, this time for Australia. Of course whenever I plan to have a quiet night out, it turns into a messy, loud affair. So, the Prabhu and I ended up at the Liquid Room which only had half the population of Singapore trying to get in. To cut a long story short, we ended up inside, dancing, drinking and doing the sort of things you do in a place like that. Much love to my girls, ru and fi for asking me along and having it large with me. I am still sore from all that shaking of my thang. Alright, this is taking a decidedly dodgy turn. Enough rambling from me. I might possibly still be a wee bit drunk. But nae bother, I'm off to detox by playing tennis in a couple of hours before going out again to the clubs. It's my man Shervin's 24th Birthday. Hiphip Hooray for Shervin!
Peas oot,
tim!!
Choonage: Kanye West feat. Jamie Foxx - Gold Digger
So, yesterday, I finished work, went for dinner with the family and met up with a bunch of folk in Town. Of course, we had to drink beer and so, apologising to my belly (which neelesh seems to enjoy making fun of...not me, you see, just my belly for it is a separate entity....much like the little alien chap on that hapless bloke's belly in Total Recall. I hope my belly never gets to that stage!), I threw all caution to the wind and drank for Singapore. Our next stop was a wee watering hole in Little India whose name I shan't divulge because of selfish reasons; everytime we go, it just gets more and more crowded. Yes, one does have to be selfish with these things. We drank somemore, this time for Australia. Of course whenever I plan to have a quiet night out, it turns into a messy, loud affair. So, the Prabhu and I ended up at the Liquid Room which only had half the population of Singapore trying to get in. To cut a long story short, we ended up inside, dancing, drinking and doing the sort of things you do in a place like that. Much love to my girls, ru and fi for asking me along and having it large with me. I am still sore from all that shaking of my thang. Alright, this is taking a decidedly dodgy turn. Enough rambling from me. I might possibly still be a wee bit drunk. But nae bother, I'm off to detox by playing tennis in a couple of hours before going out again to the clubs. It's my man Shervin's 24th Birthday. Hiphip Hooray for Shervin!
Peas oot,
tim!!
Choonage: Kanye West feat. Jamie Foxx - Gold Digger
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Poem of the Day (Again!):
Cruel Beauty of You
How do I explain these thoughts that have lain dormant inside my heart since time immemorial?
How do I come to terms with my inability to articulate,
to communicate,
To tell you that I'm mesmerized by you,
Want you,
Need you.
Maybe it's because of this,
this postmodern human condition.
My affliction,
What some call urban alienation.
Maybe I'm just too damn shy,
too scared.
So, too bad.
Tim'05
Choonage: The Observatory - I Didn't See Her (Again!)
Cruel Beauty of You
How do I explain these thoughts that have lain dormant inside my heart since time immemorial?
How do I come to terms with my inability to articulate,
to communicate,
To tell you that I'm mesmerized by you,
Want you,
Need you.
Maybe it's because of this,
this postmodern human condition.
My affliction,
What some call urban alienation.
Maybe I'm just too damn shy,
too scared.
So, too bad.
Tim'05
Choonage: The Observatory - I Didn't See Her (Again!)
Poem of the Day:
A Bubble for Two.
I read too much into emails,
I tell too many tall tales,
But what I'm about to say isn't all false...
Right now,
I wish I had you in my arms.
So I could tell you that
Last night,
I dreamt that we owned a little farm,
Far away,
In a foreign land.
With only our farm animals, organic vegetables,
And each other for company.
Just you and me.
Tim'05
Choonage: The Observatory - I Didn't See Her
A Bubble for Two.
I read too much into emails,
I tell too many tall tales,
But what I'm about to say isn't all false...
Right now,
I wish I had you in my arms.
So I could tell you that
Last night,
I dreamt that we owned a little farm,
Far away,
In a foreign land.
With only our farm animals, organic vegetables,
And each other for company.
Just you and me.
Tim'05
Choonage: The Observatory - I Didn't See Her
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
For many of youse who don't know, I've just started an internship (more or less unpaid but nae bother, the experience is invaluable) at MTV. Today was my 2nd day and I'm already beginning to adapt and to find ways of feeling comfortable. The first day wasn't great but today's been much better. I turned up yesterday in a tucked-in shirt, jeans and black leather shoes and felt very out of place. Folk here are so casually dressed,it's almost silly (I say almost, this is to save my ass from getting in trouble. Now that I'm kind of working, I fear getting in trouble for blogging too much about the workplace..such a climate of fear exists in Spore...maybe it's just in my head). Anyhoo, today's working attire consisted of teeshirt, jeans and trainers. It was wonderful. I spent a good 70% of today in front of the computer, researching soon-to-be-released films. Oh! I've been assigned to help produce MTV Screen which is about movies if you haven't guessed by now. It's been pretty interesting so far, I'm learning new things everyday. Apparently, I'll be learning how to edit next week which should be useful. And on thursday,I'm going to a club for some filming I think...wahey!
Ok, enough. Let's not give too much away.....
I can't bear to look at a computer monitor for a second longer. My head might explode.
Choonage: Jack Johnson - Sexy Plexi
Ok, enough. Let's not give too much away.....
I can't bear to look at a computer monitor for a second longer. My head might explode.
Choonage: Jack Johnson - Sexy Plexi
