So, I've been getting some serious chat from the folks again. About careers and motivation and all that kind of thing. It's not been easy I have to admit. I'm currently in a strange position. I'm getting too comfortable at MTV (if I was getting a proper salary, it would be the perfect holiday job but...I'm not even on holiday and therein lies one major problem. I should be looking for a proper,permanent job.)...at the moment, I'm getting disillusioned about the (local)workforce. I can't see myself in the C&C department for the long run so what next? I feel like my options are swiftly disappearing as the days go by. I don't have a clue about what I want to do. I wish I could be a student forever. I miss my friends from St Andrews so much. I miss just sitting in my living room watching afternoon telly,drinking copious amounts of coffee, smoking rollies like there's no tomorrow, chatting with folk like Sam,Ali,Sara,Aidan,Fi...etc........why oh why did I not do a postgrad?! I could have been in London now with mistah moon, going on adventures and acting silly. Instead, I'm in this humid country, irritable because I've quit the fags,because it feels like I'm trapped, feeling paranoid that Big Brother and all his little minions are watching me (constantly). I need a break. I need to clear my head. I need to find a girl who makes me forget that I'm such a whiney boy. But that's a problem in itself. I can't seem to find anyone suitable. And that, dear reader,is my problem and not your's. Thank you for reading.

Choonage: Elliot Smith - Everything Means Nothing To Me