Been spending the past few days trying to cut down on my alcohol consumption (ok, maybe not trying so much as being forced to due to finances and all that) and trying to sort out the near future. It's been tiring to say the least. I don't want to get the hopes of those in Singapore up too much but ladies back home, it looks like your man here might well be returning in a matter of weeks. Yes. "Tim, back in Singapore for good? Surely not!", I hear you say. No. Believe it or not, the reality is that this impossible is swiftly turning into a probable. This is the last week of my looking for jobs and I have to admit, it's not been easy. One minute I'm all enthusiastic about looking for jobs, the next, I'm trying hard to search deep within myself for those absent reserves of motivation to look for said jobs. In between having deep, meaningful chats with close friends about what the future holds for me and watching watching films like "Joy Luck Club" (believe it or not, this film actually got me thinking!)which make me reflect upon issues of identity and the concept of "home" (what exactly is home? Is it Singapore? Is it the UK? Perhaps it's somewhere I've yet to stay in, somewhere like Vietnam or Brazil), I find myself fighting inner battles inside my mind. Why should I stay in London? Why should I return to Singapore? What do I want to do with my life? These questions plague my mind at all hours of the day...to be honest, these little debates in my head have kept me up a fair few times in the past month. I think I should just return and give Singapore a chance. It's probably better than I make it out to be. I hope it is. I really do. Well, nothing's finalised yet so, I'd better leave it at that. And on this sad note, I shall leave you to imagine a future with me in the UK or Spore. What think you?
Choonage:
Do The Whirlwind - Architecture in Helsinki

p.s. Thanks to Neelesh and Nima for introducing me to this uplifting song. I cannot stop listening to it.